The Amazing Lisa (Mainstone Farm Trainer) gave me a riding lesson this morning. I have realized that I need to stay in my dressage saddle more than the jump saddle. Being out of the dressage saddle for a few days last week to take Tally over some small jumps really proved detrimental to my seat. Pinching very badly with my knees.
This is why our Lisa is so amazing. Lesson this morning was very much like talking a distraught person off the ledge. She was able to talk me back into where my legs needed to be and back to riding more with my core.
So bottom line, maybe only one day a week jumping instead of 3 days in a row.
Where am I on diet? Last week Frenchy brought home 6 week Total Body Transformation Challenge and he is doing it with me. If you want to find the plan, the print out says by Aimee Marshall http://www.bfwstudio.com We have stayed right on plan and feeling amazing.
I get a lot of inspiration for posts from listening to my pod casts. This morning I was listening to Dr. Phil interview Mitch Albom about various books he has written, Tuesdays with Morrie is one of them. Mitch himself suffered a loss and he discusses that in the podcast. He speaks about how utterly helpless he felt holding his daughter as she took her last breath. That really hit home this morning.
I lost my Ed to pancreatic cancer on my birthday, which is coming up. The next few weeks have always been very hard and now I think I understand why it will always be very hard. Mitch hit the nail right on the head. Everything in our brains tell us that there was not a thing we could do to change the inevitable, but we have this horrible feeling that can not be shaken that we did not do enough. There had to something else that we could have done. Re running the last few months over and over in our heads on what we could have done better.
Four years later, I know now that Ed’s passing is why I am riding again. Do not wait for the opportune time to do what you love. Do it now!!! Enjoy it now. Take those trips you have dreamed about. No more procrastinating. Someone else is not going to schedule it for you.
Blazing Saddles it was. Super hot show. Super fun though. Had 5 of us total at Sunday’s show. Lisa showed Tally First Level and she gave a blue ribbon performance. I rode Intro C for the second time. It was better than our first show, however, on the second circle in the middle I totally lost my stirrup and for some reason I can not regain my stirrup while he is moving. I have always been able to do that before. Not sure what the deal is. I guess I need to practice that. All in all though, I also received a 1st place with a score of 69.3. Mrs Clause was the judges name. (ha ha)
Not riding him today to give him a break. When I do ride again, we are going back in the jump saddle to start working on small jumps. Just don’t want him getting totally burnt out on doing the same thing all the time.
First show on Tally since I started this journey from Fat Equestrian to Fit Equestrian. Half way through first test Tally broke and I seriously considered just walking out of the arena. We recovered enough to score a 64. Second test was Intro C and has Canters in it we scored a 63. Neither test was pretty. This judge was honestly a gift. Boy did I need the confidence gift she gave with the scores. My opinion should have been in the 50’s.
Watched the videos. I am a long way away. I’m feeling more confident in the saddle, but it truly is still not balanced. I need to push harder now. More core and more stamina.
It’s proven that a healthy lifestyle not only is just plain good for us, but it also helps with our relationships, our careers and our self esteem. So why do we slip up? Why does our Anti Self show up and why in the freak do we allow it?
Where I have grown in this journey is recognizing when I’m slipping up and find a new focus. You have read all the different things I incorporate in my day to day to help focus. I’ve added another. I purchased a juicer and yesterday this was my routine:
Drank a large glass of water immediately on waking.
Black Coffee 15 minutes later.
Juiced : a) 2 carrots b) 2 stalks of celery c) 1/2 beet d) 1/2 apple and handful of kale. Swigged it!!
Worked out (So yesterday was Sunday, so that work out was riding Tally)
Ate a 3 egg omelet with Kale and tomatoes and parsley. ( over did the parsley and it was not that great but ate it anyway)
Dinner was grilled Mahi with Asparagus and Avocado.
Drank a glass of Cologen with water and snacked a few dark chocolate chips. (they are not that great supposedly good for you)
Yesterday’s ride was amazing. This whole new lifestyle is truly getting me closer to being The Fit Equestrian. I have a show May 25th. I am showing Tally Intro Level Test B and Test C. Test B is a breeze. Can not lie I’m afraid of Test C. There is a small Canter movement in it TWICE. Yikes. Here’s the issue: When it is time to transition down from canter to trot I completely fall apart and it looks horrible. On top of all that, I have never cantered Tally off property. It would be so completely easy for me to just say no I’m not going to do test C, but if I don’t do it at this show I truly feel all this hard work will all be for naught.
So I totally must give credit to today’s post to Dr. Phil’s Phil in the Blanks guest today: Mike Bayer Today’s podcast resonated so much with me. If you don’t see me posting on my blog for a few days, I guaranty you it is because my Anti-Self has popped up and I am feeling guilty for letting it.
A few examples of best self and anti self in my riding:
Best self looks like this. I’m sitting up tall, Tally is in front of my leg, I’m at the barn regular, I know exactly what to do when he is not moving correctly, I’m pushing beyond my limit, I’m asking for a canter without fear.
My Anti self now looks like this. My head is down, my shoulders are not back, I’m trying to hide the fact my boobs are bouncing all over, I’m not keeping my core tight, totally not focused on keeping him on task, I give up when he gets flat and strung out, I let him stop on me.
Do you get where I’m going? My anti self is totally insecure!! My anti self in my day to day life crops up when I eat poorly, when I drink to excess, when I watch too much TV. To keep my anti self from showing up during the day, I personally need to journal, I need to read something completely positive and encouraging, I need to meditate. Focus – Focus – Focus!! Can you relate?